Posts tagged love

you know i try to fit in… i dont think it works

around others my laugh is too fake, my smile is too.

i nod politely and listen to others go bla bla bla

when in reality i just want to have a real conversation, heartwarming or heartwrenching, i want to show my feelings, speak my thoughts, i want to show others who i am.

a heart to heart chat is what i yearn for, someone who will listen and respond.

but i when i try it out i’m either cut off or rejected or left talking to myself.

but i know at least i tried, not to just fit in, but to find a true friend.

i wish i could sing

i wish i could play the piano, or cello, or guitar … just an instrument

i wish i could draw or paint more than stick figures

i wish i could make friends that wont walk away and forget me

i wish my friends would want to hang out with me

i wish i could meet a hot and nice guy that wouldn’t mind texting, calling, and hanging out with me

i wish i could find a stable relationship

i wish i had all the cloths,shoes, and accessories i drool over dreaming i had

i wish… i dream… keep wishing and dreaming.

*sigh

When I think I love I think of the kisses, and the smiles. The laughs and the looks across the table. About the silent times were words are not needed. About long talks that never seem to end. However I always seem to forget about the other side of love. Sometimes we get so caught up in the jest of it all that we seem to forget that we are not the only one in unity of love. We end up wanting the movie romance were you are happy and smiling all the time. We want something that seems like a fairy tale. What we have to remember is that not everything is perfect. No matter how much we want it to be. Once we realize it is more work than we want it to be that type of love becomes distant and scared to an extent.  But the beauty in love is working despite the arguments, the different points of views and the misunderstandings. Being able to say “I’m Sorry” and resolve the problems in a way is courage.

When things get rough and problems arise many couple make the error of giving up, they say, “we’re having problems and we argue, this means our relationship wasn’t meant to be” and one walks away while the other either breaks down or walks in the opposite direction. Love is never as it is seen in the movies; it takes work, dedication, and time.